Just Beautiful
I discovered today
my loneliness that grows
when you are not with me
my hearts aches for you
my heart craves the feeling of your love
words cannot describe how much I miss you at times
it is like a physical ache in my chest
I long for you to love me
the way I love you
My head is a mess right now
my heart wants you
but my brain constantly reminds me of how badly you wounded me
how easy it was for you to simply crush my heart as if I was never anything to you
how could you do that to me?
I gave you everything, I gave you the whole of me
I shouldn’t have believed you when you said you were different
but the naïve child in me desperately wanted to believe that what you were telling me was true
how silly of me to believe you
my heart had been trodden on before..
why didn’t I just block you out like I did with all the others?
why didn’t I push you away?
why didn’t you love me?
Sometimes I think that I am brave–
that there is nothing I can’t face–
but when I think about you leaving,
my limbs grow numb,
and all courage
is erased.
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